What do you want to do with life?

It is a chilly December evening and I can see the light fading away outside my bedroom window. The Cars in the parking lot is drenched in sparkling white snow. There is white every were. I just opened this Google docs file and started typing. There is something deep inside my heart , something which I want to get out of my heart. But I could not figure out what exactly it is. 

Let me tell you it is nothing new. The feeling which I am talking about, the uneasy feeling has been with me for  some time now. The only thing I know is that it is making me more and more uneasy each day. I open my Toshiba laptop and stare into it not knowing what I am doing or what I want to do. I go to watch TV but somehow none of the channels seem to interest me. My wife is busy cooking. I am sure there is nothing she can do to help me. So what to do now? How will I know what is wrong with me and what is making me uneasy. 

I started talking to myself. Early in my college days, I had this gift of talking to myself and discussing my problems with another me who seems to be much more knowledgeable and who always have a mature and logical answer for all my questions. But some were along the way I lost that gift. May be because of lack of use of that skill. Today I thought of talking to my inner self but he seems to be in a deep sleep and not responding to me. Random thoughts keep on distracting me from my question. So I decided to resort to my last weapon. Writing! The only writing I do now a day is for work related purpose or chatting. But I thought it was worth giving it a try. 

I knew my uneasy feeling had something to do with the life I am living right now. But what could be possibly wrong. I have accomplished whatever I have wished for. The career I wanted, the Girl I loved and the more I think about that there is no reason for me to feel uneasy. But what is causing that emptiness. Maybe I do not have a thing to do to keep myself busy. Maybe I have to get out of my comfort zone and search for uncharted territories. That is what have given me the most joy. To discover something, to figure out something that I never knew before. Maybe it is time. No. It IS time!!