Today I was informed that a man ,I knew briefly but liked very well had overdosed on heroin.  He was only twenty-eight years old and had been battling this addiction for close to a decade.  His death has made me look upon my own life and reflect of what my impact locally, and globally has been and what i desire it to be. 

     I know that if I were to die today there would be some that would dance on my grave and have a wonderful time at my death.  Ill trick them and be cremated.  I don’t hold those feelings against them.  I have not always been the man i am today.  Others however, hopefully more then those previously mentioned will feel a loss of a good man.  A man that truly cared not only about those he knew but, even those he didn’t.  I am hopeful though that before I do die I will be able to have a greater impact then i have had to this point.  I hear from many different places and people that I am a good man.  However, for me I don’t think I am truly a good man because I know that my positive impact on this world is not where it could or should be.  I have very strong aspirations to do great things for as many people as I can.  I am aware that for me the person i am can only do so much.  I cant nor would I want to be president or any other office holder for that matter.  That good is all lost in the paperwork and the red tape.  Another reason i will  never feel like I am truly a good man is because I know that I have wasted so many years not trying to make an impact on the world in a positive fashion.  Sure negative is easy i have done that.  So say the dancers. 

     I question today what can I do to touch as many people as I can to help those in the greatest need?  If you know me you know I want to and plan on going to India and helping small groups of people because I cant financially help large groups.  i also feel that to help the smaller groups as I desire will be more beneficial for all myself included because that way i will know the person I am helping not just a number.  Of course I do hope and plan to have a daily meal and feed as many as I can.  Those people will become familiar faces in time but to really know them will be impossible.  To be able to look into them and feel their souls desires i don’t feel can be done on a mass scale. 

     So in essence my goal is to leave this world in better condition when i leave it then when i joined it.  I just hope I have time.  No days are promised to any man so I need to get busy.