Today makes100 days since I have had a drink.Believe me its not because I didnt feel like drinking but because I didnt want to,this is honstely the longest I have went without a drink without being in jail.

 The emotions I have always dealt with are still there plus a few new one but I am dealing with them without alcohol which is something new for me.I feel doing it on my own is good for me but it is very hard.I have went to one meeting since I have quit and I plan to go to many more.I dont know how to stay clean and it scares me.

 Whenever my emotions are getting the best of me it gets harder to stay clean and level headed and on the right path.Everytime I get upset I think I need a beer and then I realize its all in my head but I truely do want a beer.So I tell myself its in my head and it will pass its hard very hard.I almost slipped the other day thankfully we live in the country and I had no way to town or I would have had to start over.

  I want to be able to deal with my life clean and sober its gonna be hard but I hope it gets eaiser. I AM PROUD I MADE 100 days…….