I know I have to accept the fact

That sooner or later I must forgive the pact

That God made with me and I with Him

That I messed up and made into sin.

My love from afar, I thought I could have.

But there was someone else you chose to save;

To be by your side, forever and always,

Yours truly, faithfully, never straying.

Looking back now, I see my mistake.

The love I dreamt up, I could never partake.

You would never have loved me.  And yet I cried

Over your human face and your human eyes.

Your soul, it never was beautiful to me.

My soul, my heart, is scarred, thanks to thee.

Your true ugliness lies not on the outside;

Your true ugliness is what you wish to hide!

The time I spent waiting for your reply

Was wasted time I could have spent on my life.